Killing Spiders/Killing Time

I live in an area of the country with three possibly deadly and definitely scary pests:  Rattle Snakes, Scorpions, and Black Widows.  While the first two in the group are not to be messed with, the black widow spider is far more difficult to avoid.  They are everywhere.  In the past month I have found them in the bathtub, as well as within inches of my bed and The Max’s bed.  I’m told that this time of year is particularly bad as they are mature and most deadly. I do know the chances of fatality when being bitten are low, but still, it would ruin my day.

Here’s one I found outside the house.  The little brat gives a Halloweeny feel, but I’ll pass on the free decorations. Today, they must die.  So, I shall bomb the house.

The spider killing kit directions state I must close all windows and open all cupboards and leave for two hours.  This gives me a free pass to drive into town.  “Big Deal?!  I drive to town every day!  Heck, I LIVE in a town.”  Are those thoughts running through your head?  I don’t get to go to town every day, I mean I could.  It’s five bucks or more round trip into town in gas funds and it also adds quite a few miles to the car.  Always before, I was free to stop by the store daily.  That is no longer a part of my life.

So, I am going to try and cram a bunch of errands and a teeny bit of shopping into my epic trip to town.  I feel like Laura Ingalls must have when she went to the general store and Ma and Pa bought her some new fabric to make a dress.  I don’t know how to sew.  I must learn.

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Bon-Bons and Soap Operas for Five Days

My intentions when I sat down were to tell you a fantastic story of restaurant servers vs. an obnoxious restaurant manager.  I cannot quite figure out a way to do this properly as I somewhat feel sorry for the bad guy.  So I’ll spare nasty details and share the fact that I quit my job yesterday.  I walked out in the midst of my shift with tables waiting for food that wascooking and everything.  And while the interaction between myself and the manager was definitely heated, I assume (and hope) this will be the only time I walk out on employment, so a part of me wishes I  made a scene.  Although I might feel badly if I did.  It’s probably better this way.

Luckily I was hired at another place, that position starts on Monday.  I know if other options were not already there, I’d probably  have stayed at the place I was working and put up with the nonsense for awhile longer.  Now I own five days of nothing.  No place to be, no obligations outside the home, and absolutely no money I feel I can spend.  Being as I already told you I subscribe to satellite TV , I considered sitting on the couch at every possible moment and watching re-runs on TV Land.  I still might.  Right now I want to embrace the feeling of being a stay-at-home mom for however short a period of time it is.  Consider me Mrs. Cleaver, I’m baking friggin’ bread!

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I have TV

In a world of flat screens, plasmas, High Definition and LCD, I am the proud owner of a Philips TV/VCR combo manufactured in May of 1999.  The picture quality is good enough, but the VCR is broken.  The screen measures roughly 11 inches.

This fine machine was neglected, sitting in a high corner of the house collecting dust until recently.  I had enough.  I wanted TV.  So I researched my options and a couple weeks ago, I hired the fine folks at Direct TV to come out and attach an eyesore the the outside of my home and pump the juices of the media through a wire into The Philips.

While I don’t normally plug services, I must say, the install dude was fantastic.  They scheduled for between 8:00am and noon one Satuday morning.  He was here at 8:15am and out by 9:00am.  I don’t think that has ever happened in history, and I would like to give an early Thanksgiving shout-out to the company for not ruining my entire Saturday.

What to watch..what to watch…   I have not had cable or internet service in quite some time, and when I did have it I was working more than full time and going to college and I exaggerate none when I say I never watched it.  Ever.  It was for The Max and him alone.

Now, he is strictly limited to two programs per week, which he hasn’t fussed too much about amazingly.  I’m home more hours during the week than I have been in my adult life, and I often think of turning the thing on, but I don’t even know where to start.  I don’t know TV any longer.

So, aside from football and baseball…which I will watch unprompted, give me a suggestion.  What shows are good?  Spare me from the dramatic reality shows, I feel very nosy when I am viewing other people’s weird private lives.  Tell me what there is to watch!

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Where do I go from here?

It’s been three years since The Pilver started.  I have to say my writings have been less ambitious as time has gone on, but I continue to dream of the day when I can sit here and type and receive a paycheck for my words.  Three years ago I was all gung-ho on being a single mom and I felt very strong willed.  My biggest goal was securing a home for The Max with a washing machine and dryer and a green yard outside our front door.

Now, I have that.

Three years ago, I was fairly secretive, but still allowed my dating life to peek it’s head now and then into my blogs.  After a heartbreak that nearly ruined me, I decided to never again talk about relationships.  But as you probably guessed, there is now  a Mr. Pilver.

I’m happy.  I have never been as happy as I am now.  It’s a feeling I know I need to cherish, because though I hope to be relatively happy all my life, hard times will come and I want to remember that joy does return after those difficult times pass.

What I am wondering here now is this:  What am I as I writer?  I felt like a quirky single mom sharing my blessings and hardships through words.  The Pilver was a place for me to relate my adventures and share my stories about my life and The Max’s.  I never thought I’d be in a ‘traditional’ family setting again in my life.  I never thought the possibility of having more children would arise.  (No, I am not expecting).  However, this place feels reserved for me and The Max.  So, I think, for now, it shall remain that.

Maybe in the future, I’ll open up about more additions.  I certainly cannot reserve embarrassment for only The Max.  The others would feel left out for sure.

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Recovery

As though I’ve been through a war, a war I won none the less, I am exhausted beyond the tiredness I normally feel.  Also, my curser is not showing up on the screen.   When one is tired, and trying to type and cannot see the stupid vertical line that shows them their electronic place, it is basically time to go to bed until the weariness dies off or the curser returns, or both.

What I am doing in my awake hours is embracing  the season of autumn with both my arms stretched as far as they go. I have beautiful scented candles burning, I bought a pumpkin spiced latte yesterday, and I am about to crochet a scarf that I will probably never finish.  I think I know what bears feel like when they hibernate.

The seasons changed here so quickly.  It was a hundred degrees a few weeks ago and the high today was about 62.  I usually pine for fall and it smacked me in the face this year and I feel like a house guest has arrive dunannounced and I am out of coffee.  And I still have no curser.

I mentioned before that I want to do more with this blog.  And I do.  Give me another day or so, it’s coming.  I promise.  Until then, break open your dusty boxes of fall decor with me and say hello to the holiday season.  It’s starting, don’t fight it.

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Fairy Tale

Once a fifteen year old fairly shy girl moved across the country with her family from a fast paced city life to a small (some would say backwards) town.  Somehow, in the move she found a voice and confidence to speak to strangers.  The relocation had given her an odd security that nothing was permanent and those she might say something stupid and embarrassing to would be out of her life before the humiliation could sink in.

The girl began attending a high school with less than ten percent the population of her previous educational facility.   The first day of classes she wandered into rooms silently, slowly. New students were indeed a novelty in such a small town.  By the fifth period of the seven period day, she was exhausted in the reciting of her name and where she came from and reciting words that would point out her accent and make the locals giggle.

Previously, being a small fish in the big pond had been daunting.   But even the small fish in this new small pool were recognized.   She made friends.

For the fifth class of the day, she decided to sit in the back of the classroom, in the corner.  She chose a spot next to a boy with long, long hair.  He was quiet.  He made several noises, but never said words.  It was safe there.

Over the next several weeks, the novelty of the newness of the girl to this small little town faded, and the noises of the long haired boy grew into words.

“Are you a cop?”  he would ask the girl, among other bizarre queries.  She didn’t understand why he inquired such strange things.  His equally shy demeanor would entice her into talking to him more than she would any other student.  Soon they were friends. Not like any typical friends who go to the mall after class or exchange phone numbers. But friends just the same.

The long haired boy would place things into his cargo pockets prior to class.  During the teachers lecture he would take them out, one by one and place them on his desk.  The girl would grab each item and demand a story about where they came from and why he carried them around. She had no idea he was using his pocket trinkets as a way to create a conversation between the two, for he was to shy to strike up a chatting session with the girl on his own.

Tenth grade ended for the two and with the beginning of their junior year the boy began attending classes at the local college, where he earned credits for his degree and was almost entirely absent from high school life.

Senior year began, and the boy found himself back at the high school for one sole class, which he shared with the shy girl he had met two years prior.  Sometime in that year he confessed a crush he had been harboring for her.  He wrote letters and poems and even a song for her.

The entirety of her high school romantic relationships had been knowingly temporary from the start, and this love presented to her was foreign.  She  cautiously  passed.   Their friendship, although different from before, continued after high school.  They took a road trip in the mountains after graduation.  He stayed for a week with her at her new college in a different state.  Then, they lost touch.

Ten years of only fond memories and no communication passed.  And, he found her.  She wrote to him, ecstatic about the reunion.  He called her, and they talked for hours.  Phone calls and messages continued until one day he hopped a plane to see her as she had moved back to that same city she came from fifteen years before.

That’s all it took.  The love in his eyes was undoubted.  Though she tried to resist an occurrence where heartbreak was possible, the concept that happily ever ever could occur brought down the fear.  The two became not only best friends again, but fell in love in the way that seems to be reserved for romance movies.  Though nothing is perfect, this was as close to perfection as one could dream.

She moved, again, to the area where she she had met him so many years before.  They’d both matured and been through hardships and fantastic adventures.  And, like a sappy movie, they began to dream of a happily ever after together.

Though fear and anxiety still plagued the girl, she knew that this was forever. The boy who only made noises sixteen years prior had become the one she’d been anticipating.  She keeps one of the pocket trinkets from high school safely in the top drawer of her night table. Smiles erupt every time it is opened.

Love is amazing.  The girl is astounded at the fact the long haired noise making boy stayed the same, yet turned into the greatest fit for her she would ever find.

Today, she married that man.

Tomorrow she is going to sleep in, so she will not be blogging.

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Moths and Pie

These posters are old news, but I had to laugh at this today.  And yes, I read your blog.

I’m getting a little bored with the way I have been blogging for the past few years.  I feel like I need to spice it up like an old lady who bedazzles her fanny pack.  Not sure how, but I want to.  Maybe more vlogs.  Maybe more pictures of me with the Optimus Prime helmet.  Maybe I’ll bake you a pie and then eat it for you cause you are way over there.

The great and awful thing about personal little hobbies like blogging is this:  Your friends are going to tell you they LOVE your blog…or painting or whatever you are doing.  They do this cause they are nice, and you should feel lucky to have such nice friends.

So, I am going to change things a bit.  Not today, and not next week.  Probably the week after.  September seems like a good time to start.  And before then, I vow to clean the smooshed moths off my computer screen that terrorize me at night when the glow of the laptop is the only light in the house.

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I cannot believe it’s been a YEAR!!!

Happy Ukrainian Flag Day!  (ie- I have no time for the writin’ today)

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Just Found Out

After three years of basically not caring who in the world read this, someone I never would want to does.  It’s a weird feeling having someone you don’t want to be a part of your life or your families read all about your daily life and see pictures and videos of your child.

So, what do I do?  I could password protect all entries, but that ruins some of the fun of having new readers.  I’m frankly at a loss.  Please note, there is not a dangerous situation, where I need to worry about my safety or the safety of The Max.  I feel a little bit guilty for wishing  this person would back the eff off.

For now, I am not going to do anything.  I know this is a public blog, however I have not told certain people about it because I often get people telling me they feel they know me because of what I write.  I don’t want everyone to get to know me.   As a mother, a selfish mother at that, I want YOU to stop reading this.

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“OK, Let’s Do This”

Good Morning.  Have I ever told you how big a football fan I am?  Well, I’m not.  I know maybe-maybe-five players’ names in the entire NFL.   But that did not stop me from getting school-girl-styled giddy yesterday when the annual media circus surrounding Favre’s ever questionable retirement erupted.

I may not be a football nut, but I absolutely love having games playing on the television during the fall and winter months.  I don’t even have to pay attention, but the first sounds of overpaid large bodies crunching and whistles blowing seems to me the equivalent of autumns’ kick-off.

This changed a bit last year.  Brett Favre, the player who Green Bay boasted for almost two decades started playing for the cities arch-nemesis, the Minnesota Vikings.  I was living in Minnesota at the time, and this was HUGE.  This became a big enough factor that I began to actually watch football as opposed to using it as a soundtrack for crisp Sunday afternoons. I watched Favre lead the Vikings in two games where they beat the Packers.  That was friggin’ awesome.

Yesterday’s field trip made by three Viking’s team members to Favre’s home, to me, was not annoying and over hyped.  It was the perfect distraction from the stresses of day-to-day life and I considered it happy news.  Not often you get an afternoon of excitement to steal you away from the usual depressing stories splattered in the media.

Favre is going to have to stop playing at some point.  He’s forty and that’s like ninty years old in professional sports years.  But he’s fun to watch.  He’s a happy kinda guy.  So many people are haters about his flip-flopping around, but so long as he plays well, I say play.

Welcome back #4.

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