After three years of basically not caring who in the world read this, someone I never would want to does. It’s a weird feeling having someone you don’t want to be a part of your life or your families read all about your daily life and see pictures and videos of your child.
So, what do I do? I could password protect all entries, but that ruins some of the fun of having new readers. I’m frankly at a loss. Please note, there is not a dangerous situation, where I need to worry about my safety or the safety of The Max. I feel a little bit guilty for wishing this person would back the eff off.
For now, I am not going to do anything. I know this is a public blog, however I have not told certain people about it because I often get people telling me they feel they know me because of what I write. I don’t want everyone to get to know me. As a mother, a selfish mother at that, I want YOU to stop reading this.
ok, so there are 3 people who read my blog that i do not want reading my blog that do. one left a comment and i immediately flipped and wanted to shut it down. the other, was supposed to be a good friend of mine who got pissed when i wrote about breastfeeding. apparantly i was saying i am better than everyone because of that. then, when i told her to eff off, she started reading my tweets and decided to text me about staying out of HER life. hmmm, she is intruding on mine by reading a blog she hates. i am desperatley trying to figure out wordpress so i can make the switch quietly and password protect some tweets. i havent written anything good since realizing she is lurking around and it’s pissing me off!!! so, i totally feel your pain. i am so frustrated about this situation!!!!
You know, you could have just texted Amy or something. I mean, to call her out like this has got to be humiliating. I know, she can be pretty grating sometimes and she honestly scares me a little, you know constantly e-mailing me at work all the time, the phone calls in the middle of the night, the unwanted sexual advances (I’m sure you can relate–you’ve got to be sick of that too), but I’m sure she means well. I just think it’s a bit harsh to do this in public. I mean, she’s a nice girl and all, but I’ve told her a million times, showing up at my family functions, calling my grandparents “Me-ma” and “Pe-pa”, and begging them to tell her stories is just damned inappropriate for crying out loud. I mean, jeez….get a hint and learn some boundries already.
But in all seriousness, I had a similar situation with someone I used to work with and who was a pretty good buddy of mine who discovered X-E. He started posting on there and became a semi-regular for a while. I can’t explain it, but I can’t tell you how much this just tore my world apart. I couldn’t handle my worlds colliding like that. X-E is my little internet home away from home and I don’t want anyone, and I mean anyone, from my “real life” infiltrating it. It was like the whole thing just became tainted. We kind of had a couple of awkward coversations where I told him to at least keep it on the DL and not tell our co-workers about it(last thing I needed was for those idiots to start hanging out there), and he was pretty cool about that (luckily, he viewed it as sort of “sacred” too and didn’t want anyone else hanging out there either), but refused to stop posting. I think he finally got annoyed with it because no one was responding to his posts so he hasn’t posted anything in over a year now. It kind of drove a wedge between us though and after we both got laid off from our job on the same day, I kind of stopped talking to him after that. I just ignored his texts and phone calls and kind of dropped him as a friend because it honestly became kind of weird. I was stupidly, irrationally mad at him. I run into him every now and then and we chit-chat, but we basically went from pretty good buddies who used to hang out and talk all the time to casual, awkward acquaintances.
The only way I can describe it is if you have a favorite little dive bar where you hang out and you don’t want any of your friends to go there, and then suddenly one of them finds it, and now he wants it to be his place too. It’s just ruined now. That’s what it was like. But, like I said, he never posts there anymore, so maybe he lost interest. He did tell me once that he hates celebrating holidays, so maybe all the Halloween Countdown and Christmas stuff scared him off. Who knows? The whole affair was probably the most selfish, dickish thing I’ve ever done though. Can’t say I’m proud of how I behaved and I lost a good friend out of the whole thing, but there you have it.